namaste?

i bought a yoga mat.

i dyed my hair. (read: got it dyed)

i cut my hair. (read: got it cut)

i am having a little bit of a mid semester crisis. only i am not married so there will be no divorces, or affairs. maybe a romance. 

i will not quit my job (even though i may want to sometimes, it is a good job and pays for my gas and coffee. what more could a college student want?)

so like a mid-life crisis but not.

all i need now is a hobby.

oh right. yoga. :)

loneliness sucks

updating so that those who want me to will be satiated. 

lonely these days.

it's not that i am alone. i know i am not.

but there is just no one in my life that i really look forward to seeing everyday. (girls not included...i love seeing my friends)

and the cats draw near once more.

leprosy sucks

i am not invited to my friend's bachelor-ette party. 

i am allowed to be the guest book attendant but i am not invited to the party with some of my closest friends. 

i feel like a leper.

p.s. this is the 3rd wedding for me to attend in one year. without a date.

p.p.s this is the 3rd wedding of 4 that i have been the guest book attendant. 

p.p.p.s i'm lonely. really lonely.

weddings

this coming weekend i'll be at another wedding.

that makes 3 this year (starting from last june). 

weddings are wonderful and exciting and a time of real joy and love.

but you can't help feeling just a little (or a lot) lonely. 

especially if you don't have a date.

weddings are bittersweet at the moment.

it's something like, "this will be me someday, but until then i can just sit here and cheer on my friends."

but also, "wow, i have never felt lonelier in my entire life."

ok, enough pity party for today.

it's usually a bad idea to listen to ella when you are already feeling a bit blue. she's either singing about love found or love lost. or baskets. 

time to bring home the bacon.

EDIT: Holy crap it's march already.