boys and girls

so i was riding home last night from having dinner at a friend's apartment downtown, (mmm homemade pizza), listening and consequently rocking out to ben folds with all the windows rolled down when i thought of something. 

maybe girls and boys aren't so very different after all. what do we want?

love. companionship. someone to be there when we are sick or sad. someone to help us when we need it and tell us the truth when we need it. someone to hold us. someone to hold on to. someone to bounce ideas off of. someone to listen to. someone to talk with. someone to need. someone to be needed by. 

basic stuff right? so what do we get caught up on? little shit. we think about how things are going to end before they even begin. we get so hung up on the what ifs...we never go through with the why nots. 

with my hand dancing in the warm summer night air out the window of that little car bouncing down the innerloop, i figured something out. to hell with the what ifs. i'm going with the why nots. 

some people

i just can't stand her. 

and i am usually a very nice person, even if i don't like someone. i will at least pretend to be kind instead of lashing out and cat clawing them in the face like i really want to. i am a GREAT actress.

but there is just something about her that makes me want to scream. she has no common sense and is really rude and self centered. we were over at a friends house last night after the jazz fest (which she invited herself along to) and even though i told her earlier that we were gonna be there pretty late, she was complaining and yawning. then the friend pulled out some poetry and she was like "oh no no, no reading. there are only certain hours of the day you can read and this is not one of them" to which i said, "you are so wrong. reading is good anytime." and she said "nope, something something something."  the friend said "uh, this is my house, my rules." to which he added silently, and if you don't like it you can walk home. so he continued to read and she tlked through the whole thing or was texting. it was nice that he was reading and i enjoyed it but i just couldn't keep a straight face when she would ask stupid questions.

they say that there are no stupid questions...well...she's got them all down. 

i pulled the friend aside in the dining room and mouthed the words "i'm so sorry" and he said...it's ok, it's not your fault she's a barbarian. 

truer words were never spoken. 

nor shakespeare never write, nor i ever sung. 

high above, in the the blogosphere

12:18am sj realizes that there is probably about 30 minutes left on her laundry. 

12:19am sj realizes this means she must wait 30 minutes to get her pajamas and clean underwear

12:19:30am sj's head meets her desk. again. 

in lighter news, today boasted storms that laughed with lightening and chased the sunshine with hail. it was a weird weather day, not too hot but hot enough to bring in some big-ass thunder and lightening shows. 

also, i got almost all of my itunes library sorted out. figured out why some albums wouldn't stay grouped. stupid itunes. of course those two cd's can't have the same title even though they are disc 1 and 2 of the same frickin set. sometimes reasoning is beyond computers. 

as i sit here at an ungodly hour (mainly because i have to get up so early tomorrow), i am prone to ponder things. like...it is my exbf's birthday today. and you know what? i don't care. :) it has been almost a year now since we've been broken up (unless you count those weird summer months of "should we get back together for the hell of it" tension, then it's more like 10 months ago, but who's counting), and i am ok. i can't say that i am happy with where i am right now because right now is single, tired and busy all the time. 

when will i just be able to sit down and have a summer again? i shudder to think that last summer was my last real summer of laziness. ok, so being a teacher definitely gets you summers off but i will still probably work at something so i can have some kind of extra money to put away for europe. 

the marathon blog continues...

i was thinking the other day, what if i don't get my masters in music history? what if i just get it in music ed. would that be so terrible? i've made it this far, what is two more years of gobble-dy gook? but then again, i could move overseas (subsequently sending my dad and grandma into fits of worry) and just have a life there. or i could move to a big city. or both. 

GAH. indecision is not my style.

also? i missed a test in my summer course at the local community college. wednesday night i was over at ajane's and made the excellent, rational decision to skip class the next day. it wasn't until about 7pm that thursday that in a rush of sudden remembrance, that i had missed a test that would allow me to pass the course. instead, i had slept. needless to say i used some choice words on my way back to my dorm to write a pleading email to my professor. 

there is also the prospect of camping this weekend which will most definitely lighten my mood. i am not sure if it will play out with my work schedule, but if it does, that would be swell. i'd like to tackle a trail or two and then repair myself by a fire. 

well, i think that is quite enough of an earful (eyeful?) for one blog entry. i bid you adieu and i will hopefully see you on a more regular basis now that my life has settled into some crazy kind of warped routine. (sleep, eat, class, eat, work, eat, homework(?), sleep, repeat)

love,

weekendhack

apologies

i repent of having been a bad blogger as of late. things have been a little mundane and i've fallen into a pattern of all work, all class and little play. things were supposed to a little out of the ordinary last night, but guitar boy forgot to show up. i didn't really care i was just upset that after all the trouble of getting the stuff made he forgot. and also i gave my roommate b a hard time about making other plans and she totally sacrficed time with her bf to make guitar boy some frickin tiramisu. thanks b. i really did appreciate it, even though he didn't show up. it was delish.

in other news, i had a major idiot moment yesterday. on wednesday night i was over at friends house and decided it was a great idea to skip class thursday. but oh! wait! I MISSED AN FRICKIN TEST. i emailed my prof and said "i dont have a good excuse for missing class. i forgot that it was today, please show me mercy." or something like that. i really hope that he is feeling generous. 

the weather outside is so weird. it was very nice this morning at the butt crack of dawn when i was up to cover k's shift. now, it is a little more muggy and has started to rain a little, but the sun is still shining. i checked the weather and there is a fun thunderstorm about to hit. w00t. 

i think since i have been up for almost 3 hours that i will do some laundry while watching a movie or something.

maybe one of these days i will write about something of great importance to the world. until then, i bid you adieu. 

love,

weekendhack